I miss that feeling. That feeling when someone hold you tight in his arms, against his heart, when that person hold your hand, caressit or your cheek, or the simple feelin for having lips pressend aainst your's for a brief moment.

All those feelings are so far away now because of yann, and I miss that. I want to holde julian, to kiss him to do all these thins with him but I can't, because he is in NY and me in wales. When will I be able to do that aain? I have no idea.